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Some how, I have hurt a muscle on my ribs...

I wanted to write on my blog 30 seconds ago, but my brain just started doing its foggy thing....

k bye

I think it is time for a picture update!

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Ready for a picture overload? I realized that I really haven't posted any pictures this year!

Every year in my dads family we all get together and have a news years day lunch. So yes, these pictures are almost from a year ago! But this was that day! One of my favorite days of the year!

I realize that this is not a flattering picture of me, but look at those two cuties! I love my nieces and nephews!

RB's aunt passed away, actually the end of 2014, but had her funeral in 2015.  It was a hard time, and brought back many memories of when RB's mother passed away. It was so sudden. Both were young. In fact their dad is still alive and has had to bury two of his kids.  This picture was taken at the graveside service. This is another niece and my sister-in-law, aren't they just so cute! Yes, it was a cold January day!

This is one of many pictures I took of all the flowers at the funeral. I couldn't resist! There were just so many beautiful bouquets there.

This is another cute shot! I told my father-in-law to pretend he was asleep :) So it is kind of staged, but it is still so cute!

Finally got around to putting some vinyl on my Mixer! I love it! Now time to do the other side!

My lovely sister graduated with her bachelor's degree this year. I really tried to get a picture of her smiling at me from where she was sitting, but she could tell when I was taking pictures, and kept giving me goofy faces! Silly girl!

My dad's face is priceless in this one! He is such a goofball. He totally knew I was taking a picture and pulled this face! My dad never smiles in pictures when I ask him too.

This is one of my sisters best friends, we sat together at the graduation and I so I took a picture to commemorate it.

She did it! 

Another one of my favorite days of the year is when I have my family reunions! I got to meet this little cute guy!  

Tried to get a panoramic picture of the reunion, of course it is hard because everyone is moving around.

Another one of my nieces, with a big plate of goodies! They just love sweets! I don't know if she was able to eat all that.

My cute sister and her son!

I wanted this puppy so bad! I loved it! My cousin brought it to the reunion! This is my sister and another niece:) she didn't want her picture taken, but wanted to pet the puppy!

I made this shirt, and decided I liked it to much to try and sell it.

I visited my sister for a couple of days in the summer.Made my nieces take a selfie with me!

But of course, my nieces also got a hold of my phone and loved taking pictures. This is their cute dog named Diego! He is a senior dog and loves to take lots of naps!

I got sick at my sisters, and all her kids kept trying to take care of me, it was pretty cute.

Another shirt I made, but I didn't keep it.

This is what happens when your apartment is so stinking hot! You attempt to make your own air conditioner....Sadly to say, it didn't really work.....

Yes, this picture is upside down......Maybe I will fix it someday. We watched the fireworks and this is us, waiting for them to start.

Puzzle! I loved this puzzle picture, It was a hard one, but I finished it! Now it is hanging on my wall.

Yes, one day I opened my drawer and it fell to the floor and broke...... It is fixed now, but these dressers are so old! I hope they can hold together just a bit longer!

Time for Yellowstone pictures! One of our classic picnics we have every year!

I think people were just getting back from getting soaked in Beehive Geyser! You can kind of see how soaked my father-in-law is, it was my nephew's idea.

See how my nephew is soaked?

Pile on Grandpa!

The colors on this geyser basin were so pretty,  This is at the geyser basin that has steamboat.

Best place to get a burger in Yellowstone!

This was me on my birthday! This is a short hike, but I had to keep track of my heart rate. When it got too high, we would sit and rest. So it took 3 times as long as anyone else doing it, but hey, I did it!

Another place to eat in Yellowstone! This one is closer to our cabins, so we usually end up eating their a couple of times during the week.

I love this picture! This is my husband and I on our anniversary! We went to Olive Garden to celebrate! My husband will probably not like me posting this picture, but I think he is adorable!

Yep, went to Disneyland this year! Back in February. I think I will do another post on my trip there, but this is one of my favorite pictures taken while there! Me and my niece! I was sitting on my walker (yes, I have a walker) waiting for my family to get off a ride and she wanted to sit with me, it was so cute!

What am I thinking? I do not know......

Wow! If you made it through all of this congratulations!  And I feel like this is my 2015 year in pictures post!

Yeah yeah, I know

Yeah, I know my last post was pretty depressing. What can I say? My blog is here and I use it basically like its my own personal journal. I have even made it into an actually hard copy journal. It is a nice little book on my bookshelf.

I am really bad at updating, because I feel like my life really doesn't change that much. This week is thanksgiving, and I will be visiting my family.

I am participating in Nanowrimo, although I am incredibly behind. I am only at 10500 words, and I am supposed to be in the 30,000, but I am not disappointed at all, I am surprised I have gotten to ten thousand words. My Goal is to keep writing on it, even if it just a little bit at a time. I have gotten my character into a forest and has been stuck there for a while......it is like, I can't connect this point to this point. I like to just skip ahead, and I think that is what I will be doing. All of the sudden she will just be out of the forest.

Winter is hard. I mean, I really like a lot of things about winter like: pumpkins, turkeys, presents, holiday smells, electric blankets, beautiful snowy days, cuddles, and fireplaces. I could think of more, but I think you get the point. The reason it is hard is because I feel the affects of my CFIDS/SIEDS more drastically during the winter, and then their is always more depression. So it is harder then other seasons.

My sister has been coming and helping me out once a week, and it has been really awesome!  That is something new.  She didn't have a job for a bit, and so I hired her!  Don't worry she has a job now, but still helps me out. I have loved it. I feel less depressed with a cleaner home!

I have a doctors appoitment this week, my side has been bugging me and so I decided I should get it checked out. I will (hopefully) keep ya updated, but I guess if you don't hear an update then all is well in that area.

Another thing! I have an awesome husband. I just wanted the world to know.  I met him and married him before all this weird stuff happened to my body, and he loves me just as I am. We had been married for 3 in a half years before I got really sick, and I am glad he has been by my side through it all! For some reason, people find out that I have not been sick all my life, (you know only for the past six years (and now I am having a debate in my head, its not like a sickness, more like a disability, maybe I should just refer to it as my disability, but then some people who are disabled refer to them selves as being sick.....but at times all I feel is sick....I just don't know)) they are shocked a bit, and even more shocked that my husband married me before I was sick..... Its like they think, that if your disabled/sick that is what state you should have been in when you got married.....of that is just another rant going on in my brain......Anyways, yes my husband is awesome, and he does awesome things! He wrote a book a while ago, a technical book and it has been doing really well. I am very proud of him!


Wow this blog post got long. And  now all I want to know is my word count.....stinkin nanowrimo

Some days I feel like my life is over, because the future looks pretty bleak.......

Chills?

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I am determined to write more in this blog.

Today I took a medication that is supposed to help with my heart racing when I stand up....for my POTS.... the theory is my heart has a hard time compensating when standing up trying to get the blood pumped around my whole body, I have a lower Blood pressure when this happens also, So I am on this medicine that helps bring up my blood pressure by constricting my vessels hopefully making it not so hard for my heart to pump blood around my body......What really happens....
My heart still seems to race...... I still feel woozy when I am up and doing things and still feel the need to sit down to ease my heart...and then a side effect of the medicine is every single hair on my body feels like it standing straight up....like when you get the chills, but a constant chill.... I get cold even when it is warm in my apartment. My husband is probably going to come home and say something about how hot it is in here :)....I don't really see a difference in taking this.....not sure what to do..

I have been reading a book, It is a really nerdy book...The Martian, but I like it because the dude is a botanist (along with an engineer) and gets stuck on Mars. I am about half way through it.


UGG!! Chills! all the time!


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Well, Today is another Sunday, and yet another day that I slept until 2pm... It is really weird.... I don't really ever understand my body. It is not like I didn't go to bed at a decent time. I actually didn't have much trouble falling asleep last night.  My husband woke me up about the time to get ready for church. I had a headache, took some pills and fell back alseep until 2pm.... well how fun *she said sarcasticly* I don;t know what people really think of me never going to church....I don't feel inactive, I just feel.......like I am drained all the time.....I feel like I really do what I can!

Anyway that is my rant for the day.....

when I am awake, I feel like there are so many things I want to do....I made a list of projects I want to work on....and it has just been sitting there........that kind of makes me more depressed by just looking at it, and seeing all the things I didn't do this summer.... I really feel like the summer has just gone by way to fast.

I did attend a writing class once a week(for 5 weeks) that was taught by Author Heather Frost! I did miss one week due to not feeling well. They were taught in the evening and for some odd reason that is always the time I usually feel the best. It was really fun! My sister would come over earlier in the day, and she would clean my house :) I really need the help I have come to realize...Having a cleaner house definitely makes me less depressed, but it makes me even more depressed sitting in a dirty house, and not feeling like I can clean it. So I have hired my sister for now (yes, I pay her:) And it has been wonderful!!! Anyways, she would come help out, and then we would both attend this class and then after we would meet my husband for dinner somewhere! It has been fun!

I celebrated my birthday in Yellowstone this year. I have done that a couple of times in the past, but it has been a while.  It is fun having my birthday in Yellowstone, but  I miss having the cake :) but that is ok, I should go buy me a small cake  this week and we can have a little celebration!

This week is also my anniversary! Holy crap! Time really does fly right by!

What?

Next thing I know is summer is coming to an end? Wait what? I feel like I haven't done anything.

I just got back from my yearly trip from Yellowstone last saturday.

I finished the puzzle I have been working on for weeks last night.

I slept through a doctors appointment today

I didn't fall asleep until 5 am this morning.....silly panicy thinking brain.

I emailed my doctor....we shall see how that goes.

I read three books last week in Yellowstone! It was awesome!

I have not yet been to bear lake this year :(