Isn't the best time for a blog post 2 in the morning??

As you guessed by the title, I am not asleep and it is almost 2 am in the morning. I have been trying really hard to fall asleep, and I know one of the suggestions that has helped me is if I have not fallen asleep after laying there for a while get up and do something small. A lot of times, for me that is writing of some sort.  I guess it helps sort out all of the stuff in my head and helps me sleep better.

I have gotten off ambien again, It sucks being on it, but it also sucks being off it. I know some people are thinking, I thought she had Chronic Fatigue...Why can't she sleep....Well it isn't that I am not tired, because I am....My brain just doesn't want to shut off.  Life with CFS is so interesting. At times I can hardly keep my eyes open and can't make a coherent sentence come out of my mouth. Or I start switching words all over the place without even realizing it, until someone has said something...LOL, it doesn't bother me when I do that, I just find it funny.

Well this might be a long blog post and I am sorry in advance, but hey if I quit in the middle that means I got too tired to continue and then fell asleep.....Maybe in front of my computer....but hey I am asleep at least! SO I guess I should continue about what has been going on in my life.

Last week was a really exciting and anxiety ridden week, but I really didn't want my anxiety to win out (thank goodness for anti-anxiety pills). One of my roommates moved up to my end of the world, or at least closer then she was and decided it was time for a fun roomie get together!  She still had to drive 2 hours, but at least it wasn't 5 or 6.  She drove up and we met up at my house along with our other roomie  from that year, that doesn't live to far away from me.  It was a fun evening and I am glad my excitement won over! No random gut aches, no nausea, and no dizziness :) I kept thinking throughout the night "I can't believe it has been 10 years since we were roommates!" It really does not seem that long ago. I just feel like I could write so much about these 2 wonderful people that have changed my life!  I will save that for my other journal.....yes I keep another journal.....although not as well as this one.....College (and highschool, one was my friend in highschool also) would not have been the same without them. Thanks GUYS! If you ever read this, and sorry for being an over talker....I keep thinking that I talked way too much!!!

Another thing I did was get a perm! Yeah, I have not had one since highschool and I was wanting to see how I like it again......the verdict....I LOVE IT! It has been fun! We well see if I still feel that way in a couple of months :)


Some memories that linger around in my head feel like they just happened, it is weird to think how much time has gone by.


Tomorrow/today, since it is technically today, I have a family reunion to go too. I really hope I can fall asleep soon, and get enough sleep to be able to go....Because it is one of my favorite days of the year!


Maybe at the end of each blog I should do a medical update kind of thing....I don't really like the term medical......hmmm I think of something....any ways


CFS update:Started out on a new medication for my racing heart, no bad side effects so far, but I also haven't noticed any improvement either, but I have not been monitoring like I should when I take it. So my goal is to take medication and monitor and write down results.

Grumpy wife

 My husband is the coolest guy, but sometimes he has a really grumpy wife. Today was one of those day.

My weekend consisted of things I usually don't do, I guess I will start from the beginning.

 I did a landscape a couple years ago and decided that it needed some TLC this spring.   One hour on Friday and two on Saturday.....yeah I am having Post external malaise (as my doctor would call it) pretty bad. I feel super crappy and my whole body aches..... So my husband walks into my craft room asking if I was mad at him and I told him I wasn't that I was just rethinking some of my life choices. You know, because I am dramatic like that. The only choice I was rethinking was working on the landscape. I have two of my younger cousins helping me out, and I can't really just say "ok I want you to do this, this, and this" and expect it to get done exactly the way I want it, so I need to show them how...which is perfectly fine, because usually people can't read my mind. They are youngins (as I call them) and not really had landscaping experience before.  But back to telling my husband this, it doesn't come out pleasant and he walks away all sad.....Don't worry I explained my over dramatic response.

Yes, so I am pretty sore today and don't feel like moving at all.