Crazy summer

It is wonderful summer again....Life is going too quickly for me....

I have moved into my beautiful new home!  I am loving this house, it took a while in coming,but it seems as if it was worth the wait, and the extra money (at least I hope). The moving in process is going slow. I have all my stuff in this house, but it is taking its time in being put away. It comes with this sickness.... I haven't really taken any pictures yet, because things are not in place yet, like my whole front office area is piled with cardboard, from the moving boxes and the big boxes some of our furniture came in, it is crazy......Any one need big pieces of cardboard?

I have a really cute little garden out back that my sister has been helping me out with, so far 1 cucumber and 2 zucchinis have come out of it. It is full of weeds, but as long as I can keep them out of the area of my veggie plants, it should be fine.  Funny story, I planted some "red double wave" petunia seeds last January in my apartment,  but they didn't bloom double red for sure, they are pink and white. I just bought them off of eBay, so I am thinking they didn't realize that just because they come from a "red double wave" plant, doesn't mean they will be red. They are still gorgeous :) I hopefully will be collecting some seeds so I can plant some next January :) I love watching seedlings grow.

Even though I have a nice house now, I still find my depression coming at me really bad some days....Like a couple weeks ago.....I just went and bought a puppy.....without talking to my husband......bad idea for several reasons....IT WAS A PUPPY, it took all my energy out of me, and I was in bed for days after, I should have realized this before I bought it....stupid krista. I didn't technically buy it, I asked the lady for a trial period, It was like a I babysat it for 6 hours.  I got it's nails trimmed and it had a little sanitizing bath. It was actually quite happy to go back to its siblings and mom.   Sometimes during bad depression I make awful decisions......

Tired of being tired

I am really grumpy today and the last couple of days.....

I am extremely angry at this sickness I have

I don't see an end in sight of the continual exhaustion

It's always there, sometimes pounding so hard on my brain I can't speak clearly

I hate the heart palpitations I get for doing the tiniest little things

I am tired of being tired

Doctors have failed me, they have no cure, only things they can do is MAYBE help with some of the         symptoms.

It is just so weird to think about how my life was before, this was not  something that got progressively worse....it just hit me.....flu like symptoms that NEVER went away!

PEM

I have been doing really bad at updating this blog, A lot of it is me thinking "my life really hasn't changed that much", it is just the same old same old most days.

MECFS: Today I want to talk about PEM, because I am having it pretty bad today. I was at my family farm yesterday and the weather was beautiful! I just wanted to play with the cats and dogs, talk to my family and have fun! I don't regret it, even though I am in pain throughout most of my body today, I feel like it was good for my soul. I listened to my body and when I was having bad dizzy/heart palps, I would rest, if I was outside I would usually get a cute dog by me begging to be petted, which I was happy to oblige.


I was excited yesterday because the mama cat had her kittens, but I went looking for them and found them all passed away! I was heart broken! I wanted to bring a couple to my house when it is done :( I am not sure what happened, they were born alive ( at least three) because they had been feeding on the mama cat and I could tell. I am not sure if another animal got to them, the mama abandoned them, or they just were born unhealthy. I was pretty bummed out all night after I got home and kept having nightmares about dead kittens.....


My house is still being built! It is getting closer to being finished! I am super excited!!!

My soaker Tub! This is one of the things I am most excited about my new house!

The sun was setting so its not the best picture, but here is part of my kitchen and my banister on the stairs

Trevor decided he liked the middle the best

Tried to take picture of my dad and me but he started coughing just as I took it :) lol

Here is a better one, I love it! Me, Lisa, and Dad

Can you believe my little brother is getting married in less then a month!
Look how cute he was as a baby!

hola

I seem to have lost my password for a while and I am finally getting around to getting it changed again.

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Our house has finally began to be built! Last post I thought it never was going to happen, but we came to an agreement about the price (yes it is still more then what we thought).

The Framing is complete and they are working on the system rough-ins this week.

My back and shoulders have been hurting this last week, I think I have been sleeping funny on them.

I was sick for most of January.....Not fun


Sick for a chunk of February. Decided I needed to be better at staying in and not exposing myself to other people and their sicknesses, it has been a horrible flu season.