My nightmares

   Everyone has weird dreams, right? Well before I got sick,  my nightmares seemed normal, when I would have them.  Like being chased by monsters, or a loved one dying. ya know, the normal stuff. At least the normal stuff for me. After I got mono, and then Chronic fatigue my nightmares definitely changed. Now I have a couple of dreams that are recurring. The first one is me sleeping through everything. If I have an appointment the next day, My nightmares include sleeping all day and missing my whole day and my appointment.  The second dream I have  is me doing normal day things, but they are just impossible for me to do. Like in my dreams I will be so extremely tired that I can't get out of bed and do the stuff I need to do! This is a big nightmare for me because its like I am under a spell and no matter how hard I try to get up, I just can't because of exhaustion. Or sometimes in this dream I have to get to point A to point B and I am at point A laying flat on the ground with exhaustion crazy tiredness, looking at everyone around me  going from point A to point B just fine. I don't really like these dreams and they always seem to start showing up when I know I have worn myself out over the last couple of days, or a sickness is coming. They have definitely making there way into my dreams the last couple of weeks. I do feel over worked and maybe I am getting sick or something. WE will hopefully just get the stress levels down and these dreams will go away. 

 Most days I wake up feeling crappy

BLAH

Hello

So the last couple of months have been really frustrating. Selling a house is hard work, especially when you have this stupid CFIDS. The house is never in perfect order when I have a showing, and I can't just use energy I DON'T HAVE to make it look perfect. I think that is a big reason why it hasn't sold yet.

I have also been attempting to redo part of my yard. It is a very very slow process for me. Just little bits done when I feel like I have the energy to do it.

I am also pretty sure I got food poisoning last night and I am still recovering from it today. It was the most awful thing. I don't even want to tell you what happened just because thinking about how sick I felt makes me feel sick all over again. So maybe another day.

I have been having a lot harder time lately with my CFIDS then I usually do. I am more depressed then usual, and just can't find a happy balance in my life right now.  I want to take my house off the market, but I don't see any other option right now. It is really hard on me, thinking that I have to keep the house in order all the time just IN CASE there is a showing. 

I am getting worse and worse at this blogging bit. I just feel like life goes on and my life hasn't changed much, so what is there to write about.

I got Roses from my husband last Friday for fun :) but they are already wilting:( It is sad.

I went and visited my sister today and tried to transplant some plants.....I don't know if they will make it. They were looking pretty droopy when I left.

Just attempted to vacuum out my car, and now my back hurts. That was fun.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.................................................,


ok well bye

guess what ?!

my finger is pretty much healed

progression of my mrsa sore on finger;)

 So, if you gag easy then don't look at the following pictures. I'm posting this for record and wonderful memories;) they are from most recent to the startish, of when my mrsa started.

Jan 31

Jan 30

Jan 20

Jan 18

update on finger

.....so I'm scared to say this, for fear people might run for their lives.....but it wasn't a cold sore on my finger.......



it is mrsa........

yippee...............

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